Tag:essays
All the articles with the tag "essays".
What They Told Me
SubstackMy therapist told me I should go to Huntsville Texas to watch the bats
The Recovery You Want Isn’t Always the Recovery You Get
SubstackWouldn’t it be so lovely if it was?
Of course I never have straightforward injuries
SubstackAvulsed bone fragments who am I
Deoptimizing My Life
SubstackIs it bad to want to know less?
Eggs Still on Ice
SubstackAm I really just delaying grief?
Holes in the Ceiling
SubstackAs the nurse brought in my breakfast at 7:30 a.m., I realized I hadn’t left my hospital bed in a week: I had officially taken up residence on a 36 x
Are athletes obligated to speak out on social media?
SubstackIt’s Saturday afternoon and I’m following New York Times updates regarding the horrific killing 1 of Alex Pretti by a group of ICE agents. Two weeks ago, we watched as videos came out showing the…
Now.
SubstackIn flipping through an old notebook the other day, I found a chicken scratch across a page: I'm not sure when or why I wrote it, but like most serendipitous things in life, I rediscovered it at…
Maybe Your Body Isn't Cut Out For This
Substack(and other lies I've believed)
"Not the Worst Case Scenario"
SubstackI would have canceled the appointment but I have extreme guilt about canceling on doctors last minute. It had been feeling progressively better over the past 72 hours and I'm aware that my health…
Highs and Lows: The Importance of HiLo
Substack(Hint: it's what it took to get here)
The Great Unsettling
Substack“What do you want?” my boyfriend asked me the other day. “Uhhh for dinner?” I responded, not quite sure what to make of the question so naturally I went for the low-hanging fruit (which is not…
I said I'd be done with this by 40
SubstackI sat cross-legged in the corner of the large sectional couch, eyes darting around to the six other women who sat in a circle in the living room with me. "I mean, that's why I'm here before I go to…"
Temporary.
SubstackFor better or worse, the past decade plus of my life has been measure in racing seasons. 2024 was the first year since I ran my first race in 2011 that I haven’t gotten to a start line, let alone a…
"I Wish This Was a Stress Fracture"
Substack“I can’t believe I’m saying this,” I admitted to my physical therapist the other day, “but I wish this was a stress fracture. I’d give anything for this to be a stress fracture. Give me crutches, a…
It's a Pause, Not a Goodbye
SubstackI’ve been thinking a lot lately about how multiple things can be true at once: how many things are actually “ands” instead of “buts”. I can want to fight like hell to keep getting to start lines, and…
"Past My Prime"
Substack“We won’t need to file Schedule C anymore after this year,” I told my accountant this winter, “I’m no longer getting any sponsor money.” “Oh, Amelia - I’m sorry!” she replied, with that mildly…
Mirrors
SubstackI walked into a completely empty apartment in Golden, Colorado. Empty, except for a full-length freestanding mirror propped up in the master bedroom closet. I've avoided mirrors most of my life.…
Recovery has no endpoint.
SubstackIn June 2000, six months after being discharged from the pediatric ward at Emanuel Hospital, my treatment team officially declared me recovered, complete with a paper certificate (I kid you not). At…
Finding Myself Again
SubstackThis past week, I was bopping along on a weekday run down my familiar dirt path, jamming out to the best of Sunny Day Real Estate (hello teenage emo years!) and a realization suddenly dawned on me:…